Yaoi : Kingdom Hearts, Roxas x Axel : Bad Apple

“Roxas!!”


Maybe it's a dream; maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldn't mean a thing if I told you how I feel


I could hear him calling my name… the voice of my best friend.
The same friend who had taught me so much; and now, who hated every fibre of my being.

I mean, why wouldn’t he…? I betrayed him.

“ROXAS!!”
He called louder, but I didn’t batter an eyelid. I just didn’t know what to say… or even if I did, I wouldn’t have known how to say it.


So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside
And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night


He caught up to me in the street; snatching my arm and spinning me round to meet with his angry green eyes. Those same eyes had tears in them.

“You little idiot…” he was shaking, just staring hard at me.
I didn't waver, still without an expression for him. I could sense his frustration.
“Why… just why, Roxas?” his voice cracked, almost a whisper.

It was as if I’d forgotten everything: in his eyes, I could understand if that’s what he was thinking. It wasn’t his fault… yet, I still couldn’t bring myself to speak.

I just wish he would understand how I felt…


You can tell me what to say; you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care, and my heart would never know


Axel slammed me back into a wall. His arms above my head, his eyes were almost burning into mine… and the tears wouldn’t stop falling.

“I won’t let you leave.”

“…No one would miss me.”
It was the first thing I had said, in a voice unlike my own.

Everything had changed.
How could I ever be the same? Knowing that all I had known up until now… had been lie after lie.


If I make another move there'll be no more turning back
Because everything will change and it all will fade to black


My face stung from where he struck me. His hand trembled and his eyes stung red, and he glared into my face.
“You’re a fucking idiot, Roxas… You really think no one would miss you?”

His face had moved right into mine, and I just didn’t move.
The feelings of emptiness inside of me had been spiralling so far out of control, that I wasn’t even sure what was real anymore.

I had begun to doubt my existence… but after feeling Axel’s lips touch gently against mine, and his warm hand lacing into mine, something stirred inside my chest.

“I would miss you…”


If I make another move, if I take another step
Then it all would fall apart. There'd be nothing of me left



Axel kissed me again, pushing me back against the wall with his own body. I let him do what he wanted.

Whatever had been left of me was now gone… I could feel my chest slowly collapsing on me as I gave into his touch, and tears began to form in my eyes too.



If I'm crying in the wind, if I'm crying in the night
Will there ever be a way? Will my heart return to white?



Did these feelings really mean anything?
I wasn’t supposed to have a heart.

Love and hate… they weren’t so different, now that I thought about it.

But I still couldn’t understand this.

We had been under the moonlight in a dark street, but all around me I could only feel darkness… but, in a strange way, I wasn’t afraid anymore.


Can you tell me who you are? Can you tell me where I am?
I've forgotten how to see; I've forgotten if I can


“Axel…”

“Heh… see what you do to me?”
He smiled at me; which came as a surprise. He flicked me playfully on the forehead, just like he usually did.

I just stared at him, unable to fight back the tears now. I tried to speak, but no words would leave my lips… so instead, I grabbed him in a hug.

I think this shocked him, but he did hug me back, resting his chin on the top of my head.

“You’re so stupid, you know that?” he half-chuckled, “You never needed to become whole… I’ve never met anybody with a bigger heart than you.”


If I opened up my eyes there'd be no more going back
'Cause I'd throw it all away and it all would fade to black